New Year. New Beer.

  I had every reason to hate the upcoming new year. A failed relationship that resulted in me traveling a combined 6,000 miles within 2 months, having to say goodbye to the gorgeous mountains of Northern California, and being reset on all avenues of my “adult life.” 

  If I had experienced this whirlwind of conflict years ago, I would’ve already eaten a bullet. Hell, I still entertain the thought every now and then. A question to myself on a lonely, drunken night changed my attitude towards the new year. Instead of committing suicide, why not live unapologetically?

  Seems like a “no fuckin shit, Sherlock” kind of question. I’ve just now turned 24 in this new year, so bear with me as I start to challenge myself. So I thought about the question a bit. If I’m so depressed that nothing in life matters, then why not be free? What would I lose? Better yet, what can I gain?

  What is freedom? Well, I’m exploring that. I made it my resolution for this year (and the following years) to find fulfillment in the meaningless. Since that is what I thought of life, when I got excited during times where I thought I felt death holding me in my caffeine induced heart palpitations. 

  So this website, blog, whatever the fuck, is just to secretly document my journey. Also giving me practice on my writing, and confidence with my mind. You are free to stay on this website and indulge in my rants and rambles. Hopefully it’ll make you think. 

  Even if it just drives you to think about how good a beer and a cigarette sounds right now. If that’s the case, pour out some beer and take a fat fucking rip of the cig for me. Eat some Burger King too. 

If you know me in real life, don’t say anything to me about your knowledge of this. Don’t share it with others that may know me. On my own terms I’ll publish writings. Enjoy in secrecy!